Kalani Honua Blog - Poems & Art

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Beki Sibiga

Editor's Note: This blog post is a moving offering from a departing volunteer, read at our community meeting. We share it as it captures the transformative impact of the volunteer program at Kalani. 

I’m not sure that I’ve ever been in love before…until now
I’ve always had the love to give, but to receive, I just didn’t know how…until now

Falling in love with my Ohana, with each of you
Has led me closer to realizing what is true

What is true is love, being authentic and deep connection
In ways I never thought possible with human interaction…until now

Relationships so fulfilling and sacred and so fricking real
My energetic dances with all of you have helped me to heal

I know you all on levels I’ve never experienced in lives past
The colors of each of your eyes, the sounds of your unique laughs,
Have shown me what falling in love is like at last

Our talking, our giggling and our joyful endless dance
Has given me strength to move forward, hopeful and excited to give love a chance

For the love I have felt in my heart here with you
Has been overwhelming, sometimes painful that I haven’t known what to do

Yet I am reminded by this missing you pain in the center of my being
That this is a sign of how deeply I have loved and now I am finally seeing

Seeing and experiencing what true love is and what lies before me
Countless opportunities to love deeply and to just be

Seeing what is real past this veil of illusion
My loving journey with you has eased my confusion

And although I still have no clue what to do
I know that’s ok, for I’m being guided by you

YOU, the reflection of the me that I have found
A deep connection with myself, that’s not only received on the mound

I have ridden the waves and processed to much
With my Ohana standing strong so that I didn’t lose touch

And if I woke up, feeling blue and didn’t know why
I was confident that all I had to do was walk to the lanai

For I knew that some magic would greet me on this special path
And the right one of you would embrace me, say the perfect words or make me laugh

From day one you have nourished and challenged me as any lover could do
And I want to thank you beautiful people for being so perfectly you

YOU ARE AWESOME And as I stand here attempting to inspire yet shaking and not quite knowing what to do
One thing is so very clear my dear dear friends…that the true inspiration in YOU

I have seen the universe in your eyes, heard it in your words and felt it with your tough
I have witnessed it, experienced it and leardt from the reflection you have held up to me and for that god, I love you so much

What a gift it is to have fallen in love for the first time
So much so, I’m even making rhyme

And so with this precious gift, I prepare to go
To share it with the world, I love you, a hui hou

Keep letting the love in beautiful people
I miss you xxxxx

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Monday, June 11, 2012

Andy Freist

Tranformation Ignites Heart Fire

Angels ground me I seek deeper love
letting go like the rain drops land all around
each light-beam lands on my skin in gratitude
I trust each day a gift I see to this day my life brings
wholeness I lust
cherish where I come from
beleiving in where I go
that star in my sky reaching for this breath
I am joy
In rest
and in my hands i sense freedom in the passing wind
starlight dreams in my whisper
enlarging my true essence
my tropical spirit flower intrigue with the red winged bird in flight
lush soothing jungle
smiles from heart surround me
bliss full dance
expression power of ocean waves
just below the surface alive moving lava of intent always
changing, manifesting, transorming, alarming, igniting
the grace of Pele appears
All is a part of me...thank you
I want to hug the ground, kiss the plants
say mahalo to Buddha for reminding me
I am peace
My Grandma's butterfly wings send me to new heights
I feel her smile, her proud tickled heart embrace
I have no doubt opportunity awaits
magic abundance is here
I trust~
Deep mahalo's to my Kalani `ohana for all you individually are and i wish you all greatness in where you fly~

Love,

Sommer Joy Albertsen

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Thursday, July 7, 2011

Cameron McCool

Sex and Quantum PhysicsKalani resident and tantric yogi, Paul Squassoni, recently published his first book "Sex and Quantum Physics Volume 1: Tantric Yogi Tells All".

We sat down with Paul to talk about his book, altering the body's energetic state, and creating new paradigms.


Aloha Paul, let's start by sharing what your book is about...

Sure! Sex and Quantum Physics is an attempt to put tools that we already have - science and tantra - together to help people make more sense out of the world and their own lives.

The tantra part of it gives you an incredible tool for pain management, and for getting in touch with your body. And for calming yourself down.

The more scientific parts of the book allow you to understand a little bit better how everything from your own life to the global internet culture is evolving.


Quantum Physics is a topic that tends to stagger people with its complexity. Were you nervous that the scientific content might make many readers avoid the book?

Not at all. Even though Quantum Physics and Tantra are both covered in mystery and craziness! (laughs) The lessons from both are easy to understand. And I wanted the book to be understood by anyone, even in another culture, with a basic modern education. That’s why the language is simple, and why there are 24 exercises and more than 300 illustrations. I tried to keep in mind the image of an Iranian housewife reading it!


I read on the book's blog www.sexandquantumphysics.com that through 'Sex and Quantum Physics' you have essentially created a new paradigm for people to use to navigate today's world. Is that true?

Yes, it’s a look at the world in terms of energy flow. Looking at how energy flows in our lives gives us a way of examining what we inherit, what the culture gives us, and what happens in our own personal experience.

Examining sex, energy, and science gives us an understanding of how very different things are related - it helps us to see why things occur in our life. Gradually we begin to see patterns emerging; we gain insight into what triggers us, what pleases us, and why we do what we do.

I have been very reluctant to bill this as a self-help book, but Tantra yoga is the best tool I can imagine for everything. Working with the tension in your own physical, mental and emotional patterns is more effective than any form of therapy I have encountered.


What do you hope readers will learn from this book?

If nothing else, I hope they will learn to breathe down!


That’s one of the exercises in your book. Can you share it with us?

Sure. It's a simple way to connect yourself to the ground and relax not just the base chakra, but your whole energy pattern.

Here's what to do:

•    Seat yourself in a comfortable position.
•    Take an easy, good breath.
•    Focus the out-breath down through your hips and into the ground.

The air doesn’t travel down, but it may well feel as though it does as you move your awareness down your body. Explore a couple breaths. You will know when you have breathed down. Your sit bones will drop closer to the floor, your spine will begin to straighten of its own accord, your head will move up and back so that it is more directly over the spine.



If you let the top of your head relax a bit, at the end of the down-breath you may even feel a little energy rise through the neck and out the top of the head.

As you breathe down, you will notice that the rib cage relaxes, the heart settles to a gentler pace, the shoulders drop, the hips widen. Since tension in the body is everywhere counter-balanced, breathing down relaxes the entire system.

Try it sitting, standing, waiting for a bus or a train.

Hug someone and breathe down at the same time. You’ll be amazed at the difference! Better yet, get them to breathe down with you during the hug. Just tell them “Breathe in, and breathe down through your feet into the ground.” It will feel completely different from any hug you have ever encountered.


Is it really that simple?

Yes, it is! Many people use all kinds of complicated techniques to manage their energy. Simply breathing Down allows you to do the same thing - anchor yourself, calm yourself, and positively alter your energetic state with a few simple breaths!


Click here to visit the "Sex and Quantum Physics" website for further sample exercises, resources, and to read Chapters 1 & 2 of Sex and Quantum Physics.
 
Sex and Quantum Physics is available on
Amazon for $4.99 (Kindle edition) or $14.95 (paperback edition).

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Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Lewie Pell with Kalani Blog Team

Some people dont know that you can live at Kalani. We have a stewardship program where you can own a cottage here and rent it out part of the year.

The following words are from Lewie Pell, a well-loved Kalani steward gifted at poetry.


I live, work, play, pray with my life partner Christiana, in the foothills of the Sierras in Northern California, with 3 months a year at Kalani. I am deeply committed to personal and planetary transformation on all levels.

Ammachi is my guru and Adyashanti our teacher. My works as a pastoral minister with the homeless and runaway kids for 20 years at Covenant House in New York City turned my lifetime poetry/songwriting to rhyming, rapping and spoken word performing which I do wherever, whenever...


Yo!

Brother Lewie's my name

prayer power's my game-

prayer power, any minute any hour

all we gotta do

is get in touch with you know who

You know who - G-O-D

good orderly direction

that's the connection

you put your life in order

then you swim in happy waters.

How? Jesus said it best

seek the kingdom first, and its righteousness

all will be added unto you

nothing you need to do

but do your very best

and life will do the rest,

reach up as high as you can each day

-the best way to pray-

and God will reach down all the rest of the way.

Then reach out and help someone out

and you'll be helped out no doubt-

it's true as blue sky is blue

all the good you do will come back to you.

and that's the true blue

from your Bro Lew.


Poem about Kalani...

Sunrain Dance

This lihau (mist) drizzle on my face

pure grace

calls me to lighten up

in the Kalani embrace

of transformation now.

Each Aloha smile

jump starts the radiant

sunrain dance within

to deepen, deepen

run to the ocean's edge,

dive into the sparkle

swim the wide warm deep waters

of our pure being.

let the tide call of

I'm here, I'm here

draw us to new depths

of whole new me - you

one living sea

oh say can you see what I see

can we be what we see

one rainbow family

living a sweet harmony

where jungle sounds surround

coqui, coqui, go free! go free!

coqui, coqui, go free! go free!

GO!

naked

don't fake it

naked me

naked mind

naked be

no me

only we

stark naked


Transcendence

I woke up this morning

feeling - well, pretty shitty

something about some essentials

I'd forgotten to bring for this day's trip

Sent my mind into

'just is' 'just is'

words of acceptance

like sea waves

in a vision

pounding the Puna pali

will the waves of my acceptance efforts

ever break down all the layers of resistance?

how long O Lord, how long?

..Adyashanti reading after meditation

say's it's simple, just wake up!

No-thing here at all...

I'll let today's waves

keep saying that,

with no words, I hope.


Because of my age at 75, there's a lot of goodbyes ...

Forever

Clouds come and go

sky remains,

Waves rise and fall

ocean remains,

People come and go

love remains.


One of many poems to Ammachi, the "hugging saint" of India who has hugged over 26 million people.

Oh Mother

Once again you are in our land in your physical form-

and I am determined to come to you

barefoot, bare mind, bare heart empty of all but my yearning

to melt into your blessed Being...

Why does it seem harder this time - and easier?

Never before the defender of this false self

So arrayed at their crumbling walls

to do battle with this Conqueror

who comes adored with the skulls of former egos

dancing her ecstatic victory dance

bright maya - slashing sword, whirling, flashing

Singing the sonorous war songs.

echoed by her devotees' million voices

armed with a smile that eclipses the sun,

a lover's glance that melts mountains

a hug that embraces the cosmos-

O Ma! Never so easy

for this little one

to lay himself down in thee

and die.

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Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Noelani Rodriguez with Wailana Simcock

"Supernature" a site specific work at "The Point" by Wai Company Dance Theater

Interview with Artistic Director Wailana Simcock

Many people at Kalani Retreat Center love "The Point."

The Point is known as a powerful site where you have an 180 degree view of the ocean and also of the lava flow in the distance.

The Point - Kalani Retreat Center - Spiritual and Yoga RetreatsMost people here at Kalani have stories about The Point being a symbolic place for them--sometimes they've invited all their friends there for a party, sometimes they've used it for an individual ritual like prayer or meditation. The Point is definitely a special place, and on Saturday March 19th, 5:30pm there will be a performance out at The Point with dancers and actors from both the Puna community and Kalani. This performance called "Supernature," is inspired by the Point itself and the epic story of Hi'iakaikapoliopele.  It will be performed by the grass roots troupe, Wai Company with founder and Artistic Director Wailana Simcock, who is also part of the Kalani staff.

Here is an interview with Wailana about performing at The Point.

NR: People that visit Kalani love "The Point." So you're doing a performance at The Point called "site-specific." Sounds like fun, can you explain "site-specific" for us?

Wailana: Site-specific simply implies that the actual site of the work being performed is pertinent to the piece/art.  I have worked with choreographers who have taken this idea to the hilt.  Like when I danced with Pearl Ubungen in San Francisco 1993, we danced at a pit where once stood a building, The I-Hotel, which housed the first wave of Filipino Immigrants to the US and where in 1973 they were cruelly displaced.  A human barricade that was 5 man deep awaited the cops at 5 am in the morning of their wrongful eviction.  The site sat empty for 20 years.  On the 20th anniversary of the eviction, Pearl decided to perform right there, so we had the corner of Kearny and Jackson street shut down for our 3 night performances.  It was amazing!

Also, Anna Halprin was a great inspiration for not only Pearl and I, but for the whole of Modern Dance.  She is a well known Choreographer and Activist.  She had a performance on a Mt. Tamalpais in Marin County, California where the community re-enacted these rapes that had ravaged her community. The re-enactment was a way to "reclaim" the mountain that was seen as spiritual symbol for them.  It was a way to "take the mountain back," also expressing grief, uniting the community around the tragedies.

Coincidentally, a week after this performance, a tip came in and the perpetrator was caught. Whether it was due to the performance or not does not really matter.  The fact that the community was able to heal and take back the mountain was powerful and meaningful enough.  Him being captured was just extra!

NR: Many people at Kalani love The Point, a magical place where you can see 180 degree views of the ocean, hear it roar, and do rituals or celebrations. Many visitors to Kalani have stories about special occasions or soulful moments. I know someone that had a birthday party on The Point, someone else that reclaimed her body after 5 years of being in pain due to an accident by doing Qi Gong on The Point.

Can you tell us why you chose The Point?

Wailana Simcock - Choreographer - Kalani Retreat CenterWailana: The Point was just the most logical place to go outside while here at Kalani. Thus it is a celebration of nature really, more than reclaiming anything or making a poltical statement.  It is to honor the 'aina (land) and to recall the story of Hi'iaka and Pele where they live here in Puna.  It is so inspiring to live where their myths and legends are lived out.  And, as you know, the Point is so symbolic.  To me it is  like where time stands still, a portal to the gods and the sea,  a symbol of union where the sea meets the sky.  Supernature is a nod to the super nature found here and to the supernatural gods and goddesses of Hawaii.

NR: One well known Goddess of Hawaiian myth is Pele...

Wailana: Pele has chosen to live here next to us, with her "clan," right here at Kileaua.  We are right next to her, we feel her everyday. We can't do a dance outside without talking about Pele. I want to pay homage to this wahi pana (storied place) of Puna that have been told for hundreds of years.

NR: What will you be doing for the performance?

Wailana: It's very eclectic and all over the place.  Some acting, spoken word. Some oli (chanting). We're going to be doing some Aerial work too on the tissue, ring, and straps, hanging from the trees there. We're going to have a Nina Simone song I am excited to work on in the aerial straps, a pas de deux to "Wild is the Wind" by my favorite, Nina Simone.

We'll have some different influences, like some kitschy camp 70s music (Supernature by Cerrone), some original hula and oli, songs about Pele.

NR: How can we come see you in this unique performance?

The performance is Saturday March 19th, 5:30pm at The Point. We are accepting love donations of any kind!  We are a very young company and are very ambitious. We are premiering Wai Company, our name, our mission and and our website -  waicompany.com.  We are stoked to be this unique dance theater company based out of Puna. We are faced with lots of challenges here but we make them into opportunities.  You have to to survive. You gotta be creative. I never would of thought I would start a dance company here. But I am so glad I did.

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Monday, January 25, 2010

Sara Pluta

Dearest Kalani Ohana-

Not one usually at a loss for words, I struggle to vocalize what my heart and soul feels. My time at Kalani is sacred to me, it transforms me, nourishes me, strengthens me, and fills me with blissful peace. The land serenades me with her gorgeous elegance, Pele humbles me, and each and every one of you touches me with your unique beauty.  

I am blessed to have found you, to have experienced you, to have been loved by you. Mahalo to each smile, each hug, each sunrise, each sunset, each spray of salty ocean mist, and every moment of my time in your presence. You are all a rainbow of hope to me, thank you for filling my heart with your sunshine...I miss you. I love you.

I dedicate this poem to you, to Kalani, to my renewed sense of life, and to every person who knows that miracles do happen...Kalani as my guide and you as my encouragement and support. Nearly lost, I have found my spirit once again.

The Storm
 
Clouds thicken and suffocate her empty heart like smoke in a lonely bar
Desperate, unheard, the soul leaves her temple
Lost and alone, droplets of rain fall like weights in her psyche
Emotions seep in, her portal of pain is flung open
Vulnerable, raw...it hurts
Fearful but curious, she reaches deep to find a flicker of hope
Soon blazing like a campfire flame, energy begins to pump through her veins
Churning, burning, there is life
The clouds clear, the rain ceases, sun breaks through
Her heart blossoms like a flower at dawn
A full rainbow emerges, she steps into her light

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Saturday, January 23, 2010

Amy Murphy

I will call it a blur
But it has meant more than that
I've been dropping
Pieces of my past
Everywhere

Making room
Becoming lighter

I've sacrificed
Layer of my hands
Sometimes, my heart
To feel

To recognize
Groves in the coral
Colors in the sky
Hints of pain, in every pupil

I've watched
Patient surfers
Wait for a wave
Lava
Break the surface

I've witnessed
Angles
In every face
Soften

Leaving
My shoes at the door
Among other things
Revising the plan
Using an eraser
To sharpen today's picture
Gently blowing
Shavings of cruelty
From the page

Seeing
How beautiful we are
When we're destroyed

Realizing
How many hands it takes
To put one person
Back together

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Saturday, January 9, 2010

Jason Cohen (volunteer)

This year I intend to fall in love with everyone

This year I intend to love you

This year I intend to respect you

This year I intend to cry when I need to, to laugh when I want to, and to smile through it all

This year I intend to give my heart to you at every moment

This year I intend to be in love at all times

This year I intend to be thankful for this perfect feeling

This year I intend to look around in awe, and to feel blessed that this beautiful world was made for us to love together

This year I intend to try to have more and more compassion

This year I intend to kill fewer bugs

This year I intend to be gentle with myself. I intend to make mistakes

This year I intend to laugh at your jokes, and to have more fun

This year I intend to take life less seriously, to smile in the face of stress, and to laugh if I catch myself being too intense

This year I intend to floss more regularly

This year I intend to make decisions from the heart, and to work towards all of my dreams

This year I intend to listen to myself

This year I intend to revert back to childhood; to play more games, to dance more often, to sing out loud

This year I intend to make new friends, and to be a better friend to those I already have

This year I intend to sit down next to strangers and to ask their names and to smile and shake their hand or hug them and to try really hard to remember their names

This year I intend to be more thankful

This year I intend to pray

This year I intend to have a practice: to sit alone in silence everyday, to cultivate a quiet mind, and to listen for the voice of god

This year I intend to be more mindful of my actions: to hold my tongue from sharp words, and to stop my pen from harsh critique

This year I intend to kiss and hug more often and to let myself be loved

This year I intend to ask God for guidance

This year I intend to live in peace

This year I intend to be more helpful

This year I intend to be a better son and brother

This year I intend to be a kinder, gentler lover

This year I intend to tell the truth

This year I intend to listen: to really hear you when you talk about your dreams, and to help you make your dreams come true

This year I intend to be of service

This year I intend to be myself in every way

This year I intend to love you

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Monday, May 4, 2009

Tara Pollock

Tara Pollock
Since I arrived at Kalani a little over a month ago, I have felt a surge of creativity flowing through me. Perhaps it is Pele, the Goddess gracing this island, the alive landscape, the people… I can say for sure that I am feeling joy and presence more than ever before and for that I am grateful. This is a poem written in an inspired moment~

Grace bestows bounty to beautify
inner fires stoked by passion,
lessons in creation moving
from sorrow into change…
The harvest has come;
it is time to reclaim the wild.

Inability to constrict means
deep breathing into all aspects
which might have seemed scary.

Don’t want to relay the message
of truth today because
the mosaic keeps shifting
which lifts yet another veil
from my wondering eyes
now wandering the room.

Come from cocoon to full bloom
the butterfly sees far beyond the times,
settled down with transcendence
finding floetic rhythm of expansion
that means more than we know.

Humanness creeps in
deeply blending former selves
as an integration
of beauty and wealth
the abundance is astounding when
the echoes are left
to resound around the room
without pauses.

Actions have set cause into effect,
the sensual revolution
gaining respect with the
checking in of rebellious spirit
reflecting reasons beyond
the seasonal cycles which
predict us all.

We are falling
into realms beyond.

I am blessed out to realize
I know nothing,
humbling bowing before this wave~
a warrior of the heart
emerging from her cave.

- Tara Pollock

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Monday, November 17, 2008

Heather Breckenridge

PeleHer steam seeps through cracks beneath my feet.

I feel her heat, her presence, her obsidian self.
a loosening, a spiraling,
a channel of new growth, rebirth,
rebuilding, renewed.

My spirit cliff
-- sharply God-carved --
caves to ocean depths below.

A loosening, unfolding fire!

She is my past, my future,
my holy present:
Middle earth breaking free —-

Creation from nothing,
from everything?
Imagine!

Some parts of her harden, while the
rest widen my pulse.
my breath, my spirit…
        awe,
                awe,
                        awe,
                                Awakening!

She rolls over edges,
boiling to meet her destiny:
the wet Goddess.
fickle and eager for embrace.

It is made holy:

This is a white lucid awakening; an archaic fire of no-time kind;
a river of rock; a molten prayer resounding,
a coming into one’s own and out of one’s unknown.

She moves me ever forward, deeper,
        down,
                over,
                        past,
                                present,
a silent prayer emerges.

Waves encompass her,
joining her in glorious exuberance.

She is met and made whole, solid.

Birth of a brand new earth:
less than a second old…
Imagine!

Yet she has shifted my consciousness
into no time,
no beginning,
no end.

How magnified is this now,
now!

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